Remembering when...

Dear D ,

It's almost 2 months since we broke up...
Do you still love me?


I still do.. :)
Dan kurasa kamu pun juga tahu itu.
Sungguh aneh ya, kita masih bisa bersama, meskipun secara status kita tidak lagi sebagai pacar. Seolah-olah hari itu tidak pernah terjadi.
Atau kita, terutama aku, memang dalam denial, tidak ingin benar-benar mengakui dan menerima kenyataan, that you are no longer mine...

Mungkin kamu tidak akan pernah tahu, perasaanku sesungguhnya...
Kesedihan yang harus kusembunyikan, karena aku tidak ingin kamu melihat aku terpuruk.
Karena aku juga tidak ingin membuat suasana menjadi buruk, for i really cherish the times we spent together.
Although sometimes, I want you to understand how I feel.

I still can't let go of you..
Even though I know I should...
Gradually I teach myself, to surrender.. Berpasrah atas keadaan..

I believe that if things are meant to be, they'll come true,

and the past will set me free.

I believe and I know deep in my heart, that you will see,

in the time we are apart.

I've not let you go... I've kept you here with me...

Even though it seems like I've moved on, the distance still hurts me...

But if the years go by and you forget me,

know that I love you and that I cherish all the days that you were here with me,

and I was beside you, there inside your heart...

Warm in summer time ...

No, I can't let go ... Thinking of what might have been ...

I believe, even though I must leave you,

there will be a time we meet again ...

If it's true, that your heart is meant for me,

then fate will see that in distant days, we'll meet ...

And I'll love you still .. But will you still love me?

Knowing what I've done to you, but not how much you mean to me.

And if the years go by and you forget me,

know that I miss you ...

And that I'll look back on the days, that you were here with me,

and I was beside you, there inside your heart...

Warm in memories ...

No, I can't let go ... Thinking of what might have been ...

A wounded heart is hardest to forgive.

But I'll still try to make it right, for every day that I have been away from you.

I'll kiss you twice, and tenderly I'll pledge to stay ...

But if the pain has made your heart forget me,

know that I'll miss you, and that I'll look back on the days that you were here with me,

and I was beside you, there inside your heart ...

Warm in memories ...

I'll let go of you, wishing for what might have been ...

I'll love you still, the one and only you forever ...

- copied from Emotional Flutter