to love or to be loved ...

Every girl dreams about prince charming.
Every girl dreams about living her life happily ever after.
Every girl dreams about true love.
Every girl dreams about the kiss that will sweep her feet off.
and so on ...

wasn't it much a happier moment when those thoughts / dreams were in our minds ?
is it even possible, and isn't it much more simple if we just meet someone, like him/her, he/she likes us back, with blessings ?

fairytales ..
They're just really giving too much empty words.

Only happen in few people.
Leaving huge amount of people wondering and struggling their way in to get them.
Sometimes some people love but not be loved back, and be loved but can't love back.
And sometimes, there are few people left heartbroken.
For true love doesn't come cheap. For true love needs a war.








But if there is someone that assures you will to live good, he/she is the only one that really loves you and understands you and accepts you for the way you are, but you're not sure whether you actually can love him/her, because you don't know and so sick to find out what love is anymore,

will you choose to be with them ?
or continue to look for those empty words of fairytales ?

kepalsuan diri

People don't really show their true selves anymore.
Seiring berjalannya waktu, manusia semakin pintar untuk menyembunyikan sejatinya.
Or maybe it's natural instinct ?

Nowadays, it's difficult to find people that really be themselves.
It is more likely to find them having different faces/images.
Memudahkan hidup, memang...
In my cynical view, and like quoted from The Island movie, people will do everything to survive..
even they have to fake themselves...
Some people normally will fake it to get what they want.
Putting the good mask on to suck up, hoping to get something good in return. You know another word for it ? Bitches/Losers.

Or they'd do it because it makes them easier to face this world. Yeah let's just behave good in the community, then we'll have quiet and nice life ?

Or probably it's just polite to treat someone good, whether you'd care or not. Saying ourselves a good friend but eventually we'll just drift further away because life makes us to do it. Some people will just drift away because they don't really need you in their life. Are these good friends?

Someone said, 'Teman2 palsu ya?'
Hehehe.. maybe you're right :p.

Then, who can you trust in this world ?

beli anjing di aussie (pengalamanku)

buat dita yang nanya :

ncy, beli anjing di aussie gampang ya? ngerawatnya ngga repot ya? apa nda perlu di daftarin di city hal, terus di masukin sekolah anjing gitu segala?

1 . well .. setauku sih, dari ada bbrp tmen yang memang punya anjing disini ..
beli gak susah, apalagi kalo beli di petshop / petstore .. pasti dapet la, kan mereka emang jualan hehehe.. tapi ya lebih mahal dari breeder..
kalo mau cari di breeder, ya murah, jauh dari city ..
temenku ada 3 orang yang belinya dari breeder, mereka bilang ga susah juga.. tapi bbrp breeder ada yang kadang gak kasih anjingnya untuk dibeli orang indonesia .. karena yah mungkin mereka tau di indo anjing bisa dimakan xD .. ini temenku sih yang cerita, dia dulu pernah telpon satu breeder ditanyain dulu orang mana, kalo orang indonesia gak dikasih katanya xD ... disini orang2nya memang mostly sayang banget ama pets...
tapi yah ga semua breeder gitu... buktinya banyak disini international students beli2 anjing :p ..
aku sih beli dari petstore, jadi memang pasti dapet ..
jadi kesimpulannya sih, kalo untuk beli, mostly gampang ya...

2. nah untuk ngerawat, satu, ya liat2 dulu, suka anjing ga ...
kalo suka anjing ya pasti susah pun pasti dilakuin kan ehehhehe..
duwa, menurutku kalo ga mau susah ngrawat, harus liat2 breed anjingnya..
kan kasian kalo belinya golden retriever ato shepherd dog tapi yang punya jarang ajak lari2 hehehe..
untuk kita2 yang masih sibuk urusan dan jalan2 dan belom jadi ibu rumah tangga *uhuii*, ya baiknya cari anjing yang kecil2 manja2 gitu lho.. heuhuehue..
maksudnya ya yang ga perlu dibawa jalan2 sering, taruh rumah ae juga ga papa heuhuee..
tiga, ukuran repot ngurus ato gak, juga tergantung dari sifat anjingnya sih, ini gak bisa di'stereotype'in dengan gampang..
ngurus sehari2 sih ya gampang la, pasti ada waktu kan untuk tuangin makanan dan minum.. untuk pup, ya memang harus sabar ini hehehe.. apalagi kalo beli sedari puppy, ya memang harus sabar untuk ngajarin kan..
kan kaya manusia, bayi lom bisa pee ama poo di wc kan ;p
ya harus sabar ngajarin..
aku sih beruntung dapet anjing yang mungkin emang rada bandel.. tapi ngurusnya gak susah banget.. anjingku gampang makan, bisa ditinggal pergi gak nangis, kalo aku repot pun dia ngerti untuk diem nungguin aku ato tidur deket aku..
tapi juga ada temenku yang punya anjing, makannya rada susah, pilih2 trus bosenan, jadi dia repot tiap makanan harus gonta-ganti ..
jadi ini sih tergantung sifat anjing masing2 juga, ga bisa dibilang gampang ato susah gimana.. kalo kita dapet yang gampang, ya emang gampang ngurusnya hehiehie..

oya, di aussie ada peraturannya untuk harus vaccinations, wormed, dan tetek bengek lainnya gt.. memang waktu beli pertama kali pake tanda tangan 'contract of sale' yang kita janji bakal jaga ni anjing trus dikasih tanggal dia terakhir vaksin ato wormed, trus ya pasti dikuliahin dulu pertama beli tuh, untuk tanggal brapa ke vet lagi dan lain2..
tapi ini juga ga repot la, karena ya udah ditanggalin gitu, dan biasanya vet juga ngingetin kalo tanggalnya udah mau deket jadi usually kita ga lupa, cuma tinggal bawa ke vet aja setengah jam juga beres :p
ke vet nya gak sering kok, ya paling 4 bulan pertama.. ntar makin gede kan ga tiap bulan vaksin..
ga repot kok..
keperluan2 untuk pet sih disini banyak banget yang jual pet supplies..

empat, repot ato gak itu juga tergantung yang punya loh ;p mau direpotin ga ;p
misalnya ya kan ada yang bilang anjing harus mandi rutin brapa minggu sekali gitu..
ya tergantung orang e lo, rajin ga heuhue.. aku pernah kok rajin mandiin tiap minggu.. tapi juga kadang males sebulan baru dimandiin..
trus juga anjing bulu2an kan bagusnya sering2 disisirin.. ya tergantung orang e lo mau sering nyisirin ga heuheuehue..
akupun ga nyisirin tiap hari kok, tapi ya karena aku ga papa sih ngeliat anjing kucel hehehehe.. aku punya temen ga suka anjing kucel, jadi dia bilang repot tiap hari nyisirin.. lha kan salahnya dia, bukan anjingnya kan yang bikin repot ;p

kesimpulanku, ngerawat anjing ga repot sih, ya aku sih suka ama anjing...
lagian latian, ntar ngrawat anak kan lebih susah to heuhuehuehue...

3. registrasi ke city hall ... memang harus sih katanya.. anjingku sih belom ;p .. gak susah kok, udah dikasi formulir tinggal kirim ama kayanya bayar dikit hehehe...
untuk sekolah anjing sih.. yah tergantung maunya yang punya gimana lho xD
aku sih ga butuh anjingku untuk pinter2 banget ..bagiku sih bisa nemenin aku dan ga bandel banget udah cukup..
ke sekolah anjing tuh kalo mau anjingnya bener2 pinter bisa trick2 gitu lho.. wah emang diajarin disana..
jadi ini pilihan lho, kita maunya gimana ;p
mungkin ya perlu dibawa ke sekolah anjing, kalo kita bener2 ga bisa ngatur dia..
misal kita ajarin trus anjingnya memang galak agresif gitu, ya mungkin memang perlu...
tapi kalo anjingnya masih bisa kita kontrol, kenapa buang2 duit ;p
beda lho kalo mau bener2 punya anjing bagus nurut, bisa trick macem2, ato buat ntar dilombain, ya harus disekolahin ini huehuehue...
bagiku sih ya cukup di rumah aja lah ini hihihihi..


wah, jadi blabber ke mana2 .. maap dit hehehehe (^_^;)

Huan, mungkin bisa nambahin, susah gak ngejaga poppy ??

my bad habits

it seems that lately, people like to share about their bad habits ..
some of my friends (you know who you are) talked about inconsistency, or indecisive
well, if i have to tell about my bad habits, mine would be lots =p
from the worst, i'm used to be a procrastinator.. eventhough i don't like things to go in hurry, i kinda usually left the works near due date..
and for me, it's the worst habit ever .. i really like to change this though.. now i'm still trying (>.<) , it's harder because of my second bad habit, i'm kinda lazy .. =p
i don't like things to go fast, i like things slow but sure.. it's bad because of course nowadays world needs people that can act fast and agile ..
it's hard for me to change this habit too because the third habit would follow =p ... i don't really have ambition in life ..
i still don't know what i want to do or what my talent is.. until right now, i just do what normal people would do .. eventhough i'm not sure that's where my talent is ;(
from this situation, it creates new bad habit for me, negative-thinking ....
because i'm surrounded with success people, with condition that i'm still struggling in what i'm doing , ( i'm even thinking that i'm taking wrong path (o_O) ) , makes me feel i'm a big failure... then i would usually have negative thinking for most problems ...
i've been through a lot... most bad experiences ... it makes me hard to think positive ...

and now i'm realizing something.. in my case, my bad habit can be followed with other bad habit .. and just wondering, would it make difference if i just change one habit ?
probably if i'm more positive, i'd find what's good for me in this world .. then i would have some ambition or passion to fulfill .. with having ambition, i'd be surely not lazy, and certainly with me being not lazy, i'd become procrastinator ...
it's all connected ..
and it makes me wonder, just one action, can really makes much difference ..
wow... that's kinda freaky for me..
well, it probably doesn't have any similarity with your habits .. i'm just blabbering here....
arrgh, i'm so stressed out.. i have lots to do and i've lost lots of time because of procrastinating..
and this stupid brain is getting stupider each day !! ( *hitting head* )
arrgh, ow i'm hating myself... geez if only there's Doraemon.... (-_-) ...

fenomena Friendster

"Hari gini gak punya Friendster?"

Kalau dulu orang berkenalan dengan cara menanyakan alamat rumah, lalu dengan nomer telepon, jaman sekarang sepertinya orang berkenalan dengan menanyakan Friendsternya. Sudah bukan hal jarang lagi kalau orang berkenalan di dunia maya, pasti menanyakan "ada FS?".
Ataupun orang berkenalan secara face-to-face, dalam waktu dekat pasti akan ada 'friend request' di FSnya.
Friendster yang semula bertujuan untuk mencari teman lama, akhirnya bergeser untuk mencari teman2 baru. Yang lalu bergeser untuk media ngeceng =p. Mungkin Friendster bisa untuk menambah rasa percaya diri, kalau kita punya ratusan teman, atau gak cuma satu account Friendster ? Atau bisa juga untuk seleksi jodoh, kasarnya sih ya kalau jelek, ga jadi kenalan .. Hayo ada gak yang kaya gini... Jaat bener...

Anyway, ngomongin tentang mania Friendster, mungkin banyak orang yang gak cuman punya Friendster doank, mungkin join juga dengan 'pengikut-pengikut' , (sebenernya ya, emang Friendster aja ga cukup ya ? Prasaan temennya juga itu itu juga..Saya sih, tetap setia aja deh ama Friendster...) ...
Nah kalau kalian suka koleksi account 'pertemanan' , mungkin kalian juga tertarik nih bikin Friendster untuk hewan2 peliharaan ...
Banyak orang yang bikin account untuk binatang2nya di FS, nah daripada kalian2 menuh2in databasenya FS, bikin aja di DogsTer ato CatsTer ..
Untuk binatang lain sih belom ada... Atau kalian yang mau bikin ?

Sapa tau aja lho, ntar doggy2 ato pussy2 kalian dapet jodoh disana wakakaka...


Kalau sudah register di dogster, cari anjing saya ya, namanya Candy (http://www.dogster.com/?394068) ..

PS : Huan, bikin buat Poppy !!!

debutante 02

i bought Candy around $350 .. she's already been wormed and had Revolution (flea/mite/heartworm treatment) once.. and she's also microchipped (the explanation's here) , soi guess it's okay.. with her food and supplies, i spend nearly $600 that day.. wow..but i didn't regret it because she's s adorable at that time ...

why did i put it on bold,huh??

lol.. she's undescribable...
remember i told you yesterday that as far as i know, female dog is more calm than the boys..
huh.. it's not really true, or maybe my dog is a special unique one :-S ...
she's not like a girl at all !!
she's very active.. like a boy..
dan ku merasa tertipuuuuuuuuuu.........

hehehe..
abis yah dia toko kalem banget, gak loncat2, gak ribut, dipeluk diem anteng.. eh begitu nyampe rumah, lari puter2.. dan sampe sekarang juga aktif banget ga bisa diem kalo Choco dateng.. diem kalo capek doank.. emang sih kalo cuma sendirian ma aku di apartment, dia biasa diem di deket aku, tp dia juga biasa tuh tau2 bisa lari2 sendiri bolak-balik kamar tidur - ruang tamu !!
bener2 lari kuenceng gitu kaya dikejar setan.. trus bolak-balik lagi :-S apa gak pusing..
kalo lagi gulat sama Choco, gayanya loncat2 kaya singa nerkam mangsa, orang kadang ngedeketin aku aja sambil loncat2... sampe temenku bilang 'ni jangan2 dulu di kehidupan sebelumnya jadi kelinci ya.., kalo choco sih kayanya dulu kucing abis suka bertengger diatas sofa, di atas sofa lho ato di pinggir sofa, bukan di sofanya.. trus kadang tau2 bisa di atas meja makan, gasuka mandi lagi kan kaya kucing aueauehua..'
ada-ada aja.. tapi bisa jadi ya ? heuaheue

anyway, tentang CANDY.. iyah daku merasa tertipu, karena aku sadar sepertinya dia emang acting tuh waktu ditoko ..
remember, she was born in 1st April, and noone wanted to buy her, until i bought her on 24 june ?? she's nearly 3 months old, the other dogs were just around 1 or 2 months.. and usually puppies don't last that long in the pet store ...
so maybe she knew that her siblings were already gone and noone likes her so she's acting sweet.. LOL ..

i bet she's laughing inside ; 'goblok bgt ni org mau gwa gombalin xD'

ohyeah.. do you want to know what she's like when she's still a baby ??
maybe this is why noone looks at her ..

kekeke... gak lucu ya ???
lucky for her i chose her ....
well she's much more cuter than her baby time..

the next stories will be packed with lots and lots of photos.. so i guess i need to warnyou that it'd take a while to load for the images..

i gotta say, she's not pretty.. she even looks like a boy.. actually when i got her from the petstore, even the storeperson thought candy's a he, before the storeperson looked at her vagina lol..
because she likes to run around, or eventough she doesn't run, she still likes to squirm, so it's impossible to keep her fur tidy.. this is what happened when i didn't take her to bath for nearly a month..

and in the morning


kekekekekee..... jadi pengen ngucel2 lagi..

oh yah because it's my responsibility to take care of her, and well admit it, she's not pretty, so yah, harus sering dirawat supaya tetep lucu ... heuaheuhaue.. yah jadi aku sedang mencoba untuk memandiin dia setiap minggu, dan nyisirin dia paling gak 2 hari sekali supaya jadi begini nih, bener2 fresh gondrong dr bak mandi



nah lho, beda toh ??

asal usul nama Candy, sbnrnya simple..
aku sih sbnrnya mo panggil dia donat, abis dia bulet ;p
ato marshmallow, tapi karena dia gak cantik yah,jangan deh kebagusan nama ntar hauhauhauhaa...
lalu yah, mutusinnya simple...
karena aki seharian gak bisa nemu nama yang pas buat dia, akhirnya dirujuk ke calon suami nya deh..
berhubung suaminya kelak (ceile..) bernama Chocolate..
jadi dia dikasih nama Candy deh...
gitu doank aheuahuee..
semoga aja ntar ada anak2 bernama marshmallow, sugapop, chuppa chupp, gulali, jelly, lollipop, sugus, hubba bubba, mentos, hexos *lho?* heuehuheue..

lalu dia sudah mulai berubah lho dari sejak aku pertama dapet dia..
waktu pertama dulu, dia cuek banget..
bahkan aku makan sesuatuaja, dia paling ngeliatin bentar, seakan2 bilang 'makan apa? kasih donk... tp kalo ga dikasih ya ga papa deh..'
nahlho kok ada anjing cuek ama makanan ?
beuh.. choco yah, baru denger 'kresekk..' suara plastik dibuka pasti sudah ngliatin, dan kalo liat orang makan,pasti nghampirin...
lagipula, sedikit cerita ttg Choco, dia punya pandangan maut.. entah mungkin karena mukanya kaya sedih, jadi pandangannya memelas ..

ini gak terlalu keliatan sih, biasanya mukanya lebih kaya sedih lagi heuheue..
nah beda ama candy, yang cuma melongo ... :-S

but mungkin karena belajar dari Choco dia jadi mayan respon terhadap makanan skrg, hampir selalu medekati kalo aku makan dan ngeliatin.. biarpun gak ngliatin tp pasti gelayutan deket2... seperti ini nih, dia abis towel2 bahuku waktu aku makan.. =p


she can only do one trick right now *sigh*
susah ngajarinnya abis dia suka ngeliat kemana2 kalo diomongin..
cuma berhasil ini : kasih hand kalo kita pegang makanan yang dia suka, ato kalo kita sodorin tangan trus bilang 'hand.. give me hand..'

inipun ngajarnya udah setengah-mampus-karena-stres-dia-gak-bisa-bisa-padahal-udah-2-minggu ...
kata Renata (choco's mom), choco cuma butuh sehari-2 hari buat ini.. karena Choco bener2 food minded.. jadi gampang diajarin...
lah Candy sih, gak terlalu food minded banget..
hanya trick ini yang berhasil ngajarin, karena mau diajarin SIT pun, dia biasanya udah sit sendiri tanpa disuruh, hauehauehuae... dasar anjing males.. sukanya duduk males2an..

tapi aku cukup bersyukur juga, dia anjing yang ga rewel..
mau makan aja mau..
dari segala makanan kaleng ato kering .. semua mau.. not like Choco yang bosenan dan picky..
hasilnya yah begini.. Choco langsing, Candy gendut deh...

bayangin toh.. Choco umur 2 tahun, sama Candy umur 4 bulan, masa hampir sama ? (O_O)

ayo liat anjing gendut lagi


duh gendutnyaaaa.. ayo kita lihat lebih dekat..


"halah, Candy!! perutmu ndutnyaaa..."
Candy : "heheheehe.." (nyengir)


tapi kadang Candy suka sensitif juga.. mungkin maklum lah ya cewe (^^')
kalo bete yah, kadang bisa cemberut banget..

jangan sampe dia memberi lirikan maut deeeeeh seremmm


tapi dia biasanya bete gak terlalu lama kok... kalo sudah makan ato minum, dia jadi tau kalo ada yang nyayangin dia, jadi dia senyum lagi deeeeh





halah..sudah, gak usah pasang tampang manis lagi..
kmu tuh bandel !!

iya bandel.. nakal lah pokoknya..ngalahin Choco yang cowo malah hehehe
sudah bener aktif, suka caper lagi..
halaaaah.. apalagi kalo ketemu makhluk namanya 'cowo' duileee.. ganjen banget deeee...
ekornya langsung goyang2 cepet baget dan dulu sering banget langsung terlentang, minta dielus2.. *lha? ini ganjen apa horny? ;p*
sampe pernah berdua ama Renata eksperimen, Renata gendong Candy.. lalu dideketin ke aku ato housemateku Teresa dia biasa aja... lalu dipindah kedeketnya Marico (Choco's dad), ekornya langsung goyang2 cepet banget...
deketin ke aku lagi, ekornya diem..
ke Marico lagi, langsung goyang cepet lagi..
yaelah, nak... kamu itu kok ya bitchy banget toh ?????
jangan harap deh dia galak sama orang..
gimana kalo ada rampok ya.. kalo ada tamu dateng aja dia paling gonggong cuma sekali trus langsung deketin sambil goyang2 ekor ?? :-S
sekalinya dia gonggongin orang, itupun waktu kemaren aku ajak jalan2.. dia gonggongin anak kecil xD ... karena anak kecilnya ngliatin dia terus..
parah lah anjingku satu ini..
bener2 berani banget ga malu2 ama orang asing...
kok beda ya ama yang punya, malu kalo ketemu orang hauhauhauhaua.....

dia tuh juga bandel karena gak bisa diajarin !!
sampe skrg pun yah, dia masih kadang pipis/pup sembarangan,..
ayo donk hiks saran gimana ngajarinnya.. segala udah dicoba nih..
1 . dari beli semprotan untuk bauin tempat dia pipis..
2 . naruh koran dimana2 supaya dia biasa pipis di koran, jd ntar tinggal taruh koran aja di wc..
3 . trus nyoba kasih dia makan kalo dia pipis di wc (ini sih kayanya cuma manjur buat anjing yang food minded kaya choco deh, kalo candy sih ga terlalu peduli dapet snack ato gak.. :-S)
4. lalu dimasukin kandang kalo dia mau pipis
5. sampe cara tabok-tendang-jitak-keplak-jewer ....
juga ga berhasil tuh..
aneh, masa ditabok dia gak 'kaing2' tuh =p belom pernah aku berhasil membuat dia sampai berkaing2 :-S
bener2 ga tau lagi deh gimana ngajarinnya.. paling kalo abis dibentak ato dipukul, dia jalan cepet ngejauhin ga berani deket2 aku untuk bbrp saat.. seperti ini, diteriakin dari kamar dia udah langsung ngumpet di bawah kursi..



ato kalo lagi diomongin,dibentak2, dia ngeliatinnya kaya lagi bingung


jadi saya harus begimana lagi (T_T)

tpi yah gpp deh.. bagaimanapun she's my lovely dog and i really love her so

gimana ga trenyuh kalo abis marah2 trus aku makan, langsung dihampirin kaya gini
*loncat kepangkuan* "lagi makan apa sih?"


"bagi donk.. aku juga mau.... yaaaa..."


gimana ga trenyuh kalo kmu diikutin kemanapun kamu pergi .. gak bisa ditinggal sendirian deh.. eh ya bisa denk, dia ga rewel kok.. kalo aku pergi aku kurungdia di kamar, ato di wc.. ato paling aku biarin lepas tp ga ada orang di rumah, dia paling 'nguik2' dikit sambil garuk2 pintu.. halaaaaaa paling lama juga ga nyampe sejam dia udah berenti .... trus bobo kali ya....

yah aku sih merasa happy kalo pulang rumah ada yang menyambut.. merasa aja kalo ada yang nungguin di rumah.. dan aku jadi merasa ga bisa macem2.. karena kalo sesuatu terjadi ama aku,sapa yangmau ngurus anjing yang gabisa ditinggal jauh ini huehuehe... aku ke komputer,dia ikut ke bawah kursiku.. melingkar di sela2 kaki kursiku....


trus aku pindah ke depan tv, ga jauh lho ! cuma 5 langkah doank.. dia ikut ke sebelahku... kalo dia tidur trus aku masak, yah di dapur kan lama, dia jadi ngehampirin trus tiduran di bawah kakiku.. halah laaaah.......

eh aku udah cerita lom sih, kalo dia tuh punya pose tiduryang ga senonoh banget ehuehuehue
begini nih dia biasanya tidur, most of the times.. yah 50-50 deh sama pose melingkar...
ga feminim toh (-.-)


dia gak terlalu cewe.. brarti dia ga terlalu suka tidur dipeluk..
dulu waktu seminggu pertama sih minta pangku terus, beeeh skrg mah pasti bentar doank trus minta turun.. kecuali kalo dia udah bener2 ngantuk lemes, barudeh bisa dipangku elus2 ;p..
makanya kalo pagi2 aku suka gangguin dia, abis dia udah lemes ga bisa berontak ;p
dia juga gak terlalu suka nongkrong deket2yah paling di sebelahnya.. bahkan kadang jauh2, yah ga jauh sih, tp udah di luar jangkauan tangan.. kalau tidur di kamar sama aku, pasti dia di bawah kaki.. ga mau deh dipeluk...
cuman kalo pagi2 hohoho.. itulah saatnya untuk memeluk dan ngelus2 dia..
soalnya ga tau kenapa, dia cuman deketin trus nemplok kalo pagi doank.. tau2 aja bisa datengin trus tiduran di atasku...



gak disuruh lho.. di kamar jg begitu.. heuheuheueue

bonus deh.. foto dikamar

"ranjang saat ini.. lho.. ada anjing ndeprok..."

"deketin ah..."

"aih aih.. tau kalo mau difoto langsung pasang gaya..."


yah.. that's my girl !! i hope you enjoy my story ;)

film pendek 01 :

"Choco,ayo donk liat sini,mo difoto nih!"
"HUH, ogah !!"
"Ntar dikasih makanan deh !"
"mana dulu?"

"Bagi ama Candy ya !!"
"gampang lah ntar.."
"candy : (hmm.. ko choco makan kok aku gak?)"

"Candy : aaaahh kok aku ga dikasih !!!"
"Choco : bodo ah.. nyam nyam nyam.."

"Choco !! Bagi ke Candy ya!!!!!!
Aku ambil loh ntar !! ayo turun,foto dulu.."
"Choco : iya iya iya..."

"Choco : eh, buat aku semua aja ya, laper nih..."
"Candy : bah.. ya udah de.."

hasil foto malam itu :

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film pendek 02 :

"Candy : (nemplok) hayo makan apa??"

"Candy : waaa.. Oreo Wafer Stick..
mau donkkkkk....
kasih donkk.. yaa yaaa yaaa.."

"Candy mau ??"
"Candy : mau donk.. mau donk.. mau donk..
mana.. mana.. mana.."

"enak ya ??"
"Candy : uenuaaak buangettttttt.."

-the end-

film ini hanyalah hasil rekaan imajinasi saja, jikalau terdapat kesamaan karakter ataupun jalan cerita, itu hanyalah kebetulan saja.

babaiiii...

Love,
Candy

debutante

today's topic is about the debut of my pet :)

i know some of you already know about it, but i wanna make it official anyway hehehehe..

okay people, meet CANDY

Born on 1st April 2006.
Sex : Female
Colour : white creamy
Breed : Maltese x Pomeranian
She was bought on 24 June 2006.
There's a story behind our meeting. I'd like to write it in here but if you don't wannaknowit, just skip to next paragraph.
I admit that I'm a dog lover, since I was a kid, my family always has dogs.
Then when I went overseas, (2003) here in Melbourne, being a shy person I am =p, i don't really have tons of friends, and being alone in here without any family, sometimes I feel lonely at home. Eventhough I had housemates, we tend to do our own businesses so we were not really close.
I started looking for any animal since 2004. At first I was thinking for not buying a dog, because I didn't really know where my destiny would lead, whether I'd stay in here or going back home, then it would be complicated to bring back a dog. Actually at that time I wanted to buy fishes xD. They're easy, and I don't really care to bring them back home (whatfor? xD).
Then two of friends,(well they're a couple actually..) bought a dog... a male Maltese x Shih Tzu x Bishon .. named Chocolate (Choco)..

this is actually his photo taken months ago, already 2 years old ..

okay back to my dog.. since they bought a dog, i've been tempted to have one too.. but i kept my urge to buy one because i thought i wasn't ready to take care of something alive, i even wasn't able to take care of myself.. so there goes other lonely year ..
2005, talked often enough those couple,made me wanting for pet more..
then he showed me where they got their pet, searching in one of online shop like ebay..
i browsed around.. and i always checked out the petshops when i go to shopping centres, but maybe because i didn't really have the willingness (still 30% sure) , and because i like female dog better than male, and usually the ones i found attractive in pet stores are male, i still hadn't bought it yet ...
then in early of this year when i went to one of the big shopping centre, there's a dog that i really set my eye on.. couldn't take my eyes off it .. was it Candy ??

no.. heuheuheuheue.... it's a boy, Alaskan Malamute x Golden Retriever, it's really handsome, really one of a kind, cause it looks like a pure white Golden (O_o) ... yes, pure white ! i've never seen a pure white golden before.. and yes because it's really gorgeous, it's totally expensive (T_T) can't afford it, and also because i live in apartment, there's no way i can keep him in my apartment (T_T)
arrgh now i'm thinking about him again... huhuhu... i wonder where he is now..
okay back to my dog again... since that encounter with the 'whitegoldie', i wanted to have pet evenmore, and because i moved out from my old apartment in city, and moved into my friend's apartment (the choco's mom),and she said in this building there are lots of pet owners, so that time my search of a pet began serious..
and also my friend, knowing i'm looking for a female dog, asked me to try to mate our dogs .. since then she always dragged me to a petstore xD

and there it is.. on 24th June, we (me and that couple) went to a petstore in the city.. there's also a puppy i like, but because it's a bit expensive, my friend suggested to go to the petstore near the market.. because well it's cheaper there.. items in petstore in shopping centres are usually more expensive !!
that afternoon, (to be honest, i didn't really in the mood of going out at that moment, i actually just wanted to go home) .. i found Candy..
in her cage, there were also 3 others puppy.. similar like her, one of them's actually cuter xD .. and also at that moment, she's sleeping in the back , ... so i didn't really set my eyes on her.. i set my eye on the cuter dog.. there were also other dogs in other cage, jack russels, chihuahua, and shihtzu, but i don't know.. maybe because i like white colour, and they're all have dark colour, i was not really interested in them.. so i asked the storeperson to get me the dog i set my eye on, and apparently it's a he ! ;( .. very sad, because my friends also like him, and asked me to think about it but because i really insist to get female dog and they're looking forward to mate their dog, so they asked the storeperson whether they had a female dog.. and she said, yes there's one there.. she had to drag her from the back corner because she's really not active at that time, not like the others, all jumpy and barking.. my friend's even said she's a really cool dog..

reasons why i finally got her were because,
1. yes it's female .. i don't know, because so far i know that female dog's more calm than male, and eventough people said it's harder to take care of because well they have menstruation, i still prefer female than male.. maybe because i'm a female too so it's like having a girlfriend (^^)
2. she looks like Choco .. my friend really encouraged me to buy her because of this, she said it's really hard to look for a female dog which looks like her Choco and, lol i'm the only friend who wants to get a female ...
3. i couldn't let go of her !!!! when i held her, it's so hard to let her go because she really attached her paws on me, grabbed my hands and shivered a bit everytime i wanted to give her to the storeperson.. aawww...

and that's the story of how i bought my pet (^^) ... and sssttt.. i haven't told my mom yet that i have a dog, because i'm sure she'll interrogate me so please don't mention anything about it yet ;)

wow i didn't realize it's already this long.. i'll continue the debut tomorrow, okay guys ? ;)

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selingan : ( bikin 'ngoh' gak sih ni ?? )
taken from overheardinnewyork

Girl #1: Yeah, I need to buy a new cell phone; mine is broken.
Girl #2: How come.
Girl #1: I dropped it in the sand during my vacation.
Girl #2: That's how it broke?
Girl #1: No, it was fine but the sand was all over it, so I decided to rinse it clean with pouring water from the bathroom sink.

--Central Park

/swt mbak, goblok men to heuheuhue...

i'm scared ...

i just had terrible feelings ..
very bad condition.. i'm even scared of myself..
for these past months, i've been feeling uneasy about things..
worried about my life, what i have done.. what will happen to me next day.. what i'm supposed to do.. and especially i've been worrying about my situation..

i'm kinda stuck in difficult situation ..
which really drives me crazy these past weeks, my whole life seems to be hanging on a thread ..
and today, i had the peak

anyway, i just found out that my old friend's already got engaged... YAY !! big news to Solo people.. one of its gorgeous diva's got engaged =D
congratulations to you, Sa .. in case you read my blog ;p .. well I already congratulate you anyway in msn..

anyway.. yeah about that, i should be happy for her.. oh i do feel happy for her ..
i remember we used to chat about our crushes back then when we were really closed in Junior High School ..
i also remember her crush back then, that she's tried to call to his house anonymously,i think to hear his voice.. she's really popular actually, she didn't really need that hard to get a man .. lol ..
and now, about 8 years later .. had a smooth life , she's engaged with her soulmate ..
congratulations, dear .. one of your dreams has come true..

so, actually that's not my story this time..
i actually want to post about how i feel about it..
read about the news, i feel different than normal people would feel ..
normal people would just feel happy that their friends find their happiness ..
me ? well.. i do feel happy for her, but is it wrong that i do feel bad for myself ?
knowing her grown up really well, eventually makes me feel ashamed ..
and now i feel like i'm the worst person in the world ..

what kind of person who can't be happy for other people ? bad people ..
that's who i am right now.. i feel bad.. instead of 100% purely happy for her, i feel a bit ... err..
i think the appropriate word is envy ..
yeah.. i envied her a bit..
in fact, i envied everyone a bit ..
being a scum i am, it's easy for me to feel this ..

from 7 deadly sins .. i can at least had 3 of them .. i envy others.. keep wondering why it happened to others and not me .. why other people are happy and i'm not..
i'm feeling wrath for myself, because i'm such a good-for-nothing .. i can't do anything right !! my relationships all messed up.. my education, my social life, my image, are all messed up..
and i'm feeling the greed because i feel i don't have enough.. i know that i should be grateful for what i have , and i should be lucky to be me, because i know that at least i have more than enough, i'm not starving.. i still have family and good shelter.. yadda yadda yadda bla bla bla..
and people said "there's a time for everything and maybe it's not the time yet for you.."
but i had enough, well at least that's what i feel tonight..
i often wonder that "neighbours' garden is greener" is true.. and yes now i feel it's true

being surrounded with success people and i'm not one of them, makes me feel intimidated and feel like a loser ..
and even people who're actually had less quality than me, had beauty or body to overcome it .. so yeah eventhough they can't work, they'll still have a good life because of their spouse..

and me ? i have nothing to offer ..
i'm bad at school.. i'm not a good student.. i can't do things right.. i have no talent..
and i'm not attractive ..
so what kind of future i would have if i have nothing good to offer ??

okay... i'm blabbering.. sorry it's not the point of the story ... forget it

i'm a terrible person..
and now i'm really scared.. because of those envy, greed, and wrath....
i'm scared of myself..
i feel like i've turned into the worst, the most heartless evil person in the world ..
i'm scared that i'll become much worse than this..
and i'm also scared to God.. i've been broking my promises to Him, i'm scared He's mad at me and won't listen to my prayer... i don't even know how to pray anymore !!

i know i deserved to have bad things in my life..
because i know i haven't been a good child of Him ..
i guess, now envy's my new friend ??


ps : if anything happen to me in the near future, please tell my mom that I love her, and i'm really sorry I can't make her proud .. just in case.. so stressed out..

facts :)

Nama ?
~* born as Nancy Indrawati Usman .. baptised in catholic church with Florentina.. accepted confirmation sacrament with the name Claire Valerie..

born on ..
~* 11th October 1985 in Solo City, Kasih Ibu Hospital..

Gol.darah ?
~* definitely A, but i don't know negative or positive..

Tinggi ?
~* short, only about 158-160 cm x(

Warna kulit ?
~* white

Panjang rambut ?
~* long hair

mungkin ga sih kamu berhenti ngopi?
* i'm not a coffee addict, only occasional sipper :) so it's pretty possible..

mungkin ga sih co/ce secakep kamu blm punya pacar?
* lol.. i don't find myself attractive, so it's pretty possible :)

mungkin ga sih kamu hidup tanpa hp dan komp?
* i would say 70% can't .. i can still survive if there's none around..

mungkin ga sih kamu jadi bintang film?
* it's impossible ;p i've dreamt about it since i was akid, but i think i dont have the guts..

mungkin ga sih kamu ninggalin temen kamu?
* maybe, if i found out that they're not good friends..

mungkin ga sih kamu gagal dlm pacaran?
* yes.. relationship's hard..

mungkin ga sih ada orang yg sayang sama kamu?
* don't know about that ;) maybe not.. anyone ?

mungkin ga sih kamu jahatin orang?
* no.. don't have the ability to do so..

mungkin ga sih kamu ga mandi sama sekali dalam sehari?
* yesss :p if i'm not going anywhere and i'm not sweating.. :p

mungkin ga sih mantan kamu minta balik lagi?
* no.. it's impossible.. we don't even talk to each other anymore :)

mungkin ga sih kamu pake narkoba?
* maybe.. :p i'm fine and pretty sane right now.. but who knows maybe i get crazy tomorrow :p

mungkin ga sih kamu hidup di luar negeri?
* i hope so.. i'm pretty much like it better than my own country.. but who knows :( maybe i'm supposed to go home..

mungkin ga sih hidup kamu berubah 180 derajat?
* dunno.. don't think so..

mungkin ga sih kamu putus asa dalam hidup?
* very possible :)

mungkin ga sih mimpi kamu terkabul semua?
* no way...


Do you wash your car or let the carwash ?
* unfortunately i dont have a car .... hehehe.. but if i do have one, maybe i'd wash it myself.. to save money ? hehehe.. maybe go to the carwash if only have extra money..

What is your favorite animal?
* dogs (^.^) .. maybe rabbits.. polar bear ? huehuehue.. panda.. basically any fat and fluffy animals ;p

Your dream vacation?
* urrm.. urrgghh.. can't decide.. all around the world x( any country which is not in the war situation :)

Have you been in love?
* yes i think so

Ever go camping?
* no... don't think i will

Were you an honor roll student in school?
* LOL .. that's impossible :( so stupid....

Do you want to know about the future?
* yessss.. i'm pretty much in the total blackout right now..

Do you use any perfume or cologne?
* yes, but only when i go out..

Do you collect anything?
*~ urrm.. when i was a kid, i collect stickers, cute stationeries.. i'm not really a collector, but i do purchase things i like , such as DVDs of the movies i love.. games.. some of my friend said i collect them, but i don't find myself as a collector, because i only have things i like..

Do you like hot sauce?
* a bit, yes.. i like light spicy, but for the fact, i can't stand spicy food..


suka ngerokok ngga?
~* not a smoker..

suka minuman beralkohol ngga?
~* not a drinker also..

kalo weekend sukanya ngapain aja?
~* don't have any routine.. but basically chilling out.. destressing.. :)

suka fast food gak?
~* yess :p

suka clubbing?
~* not really.. it's only okay.. and only for rich people.. x(

suka ngapain aja kalo lagi banyak duit?
~* shopping ahuehaue.. gotta change this habit !!!!

temen2 manggil loe apa?
~* nancy.. nanz .. nen..

kalo lagi gak punya uang biasanya ngapain?
~* starving..

kalo masak, sukanya masak makanan apa?
~* simple meals.. i'm not a cook x(

suka buah apa aja?
~* hmm.. rambutan, kelengkeng, banana, red apple, green grapes, sawo, nangka, sweet mangoes..

suka minum beer gak?
~* no !

suka gosok gi2 sbLm tdr?
~* lol.. i'm trying to..

suka dengerin lagu yg gimana?
~* slow.. songs that can touch my heart.. easy to be listened.. generally pop, rnb, some techno,.. some jazz...

suka mandi pake sabun apa?
~* don't have any particular brand, any soap that smells great..

kalo nonton, sukanya film yang gimana?
~* comedy, horror, and thriller.. :)

suka olahraga apa?
~* i hate exercise heuahuehaue.. okay i'll start trying to like it x(

suka orang yang rambutnya di bonding?
~* if it looks great, why not ?

suka jutek ga kmu?
~* when i was low, yes...

suka ngapain aja kalo lagi sedih?
~* hmm.. crying myself to sleep :p

kalo sarapan sukanya makan apa?
~* not a morning person so usually i skip breakfast...

apakah coklat bikin loe happy?
~* not really.. yeah it helps a bit, but the problems are still there eventhough i eat tons of chocolate..

kamu nyadar ga kalo ada orang yang suka ama loe?
~* sometimes.. but not really.. i don't wanna be a 'ge-er an' person..

kamu pernah nangis gara-gara film?
~* yes.. ;p i don't think it's stupid.. i'm a sensitive person anyway..

kamu termasuk orang yang males?
~* yessssssssssss x(

menurut kamu lebih baik sehat atau gendut?
~* duh ?? healthy for sure..

perhiasan apa yang kamu pake tiap hari?
~* i have 6 piercings, 3 on each ears.. those what i wear everyday... oh also a necklace.. i only wear rings etc when i'm in party or formal occasions..

kalimat yang paling romantis yang pernah kamu denger ?
~* you are perfect in your own way.. eventhough people may not know it, but i know that you are perfect for me .. uhuk uhuk... ahiak ahiak xD

objek foto yang paling menarik kamu?
~* human interaction.. human natural feelings..

loe manja ga?
~* no.. but can be :)

sifat kamu tuh kekanak2an apa dewasa gt?
~* most people said i'm mature... but i don't think i am, i find myself i'm still a kid, i don't even know what i wanna be, isn't it childish ??

perna ngiri ma orang pacaran ga?
~* yessssss !! ;p being in a relationship is great...

pernah ke pasar?
~* of course.. but i usually go to supermarket.. hehehe

apakah kmu pernah merasa lelah dgn kehidupan cintamu?
~* yes :)

lalu apa yg kmu lakukan?
~* no idea.. i think i'll leave it up to fate..

merek mie instan apa yang paling kamu suka?
~* indomie minded.. but i also like mie sedap, and some korean noodles..

suka makan sushi ga ?
~* yes..

Demen makan sushi yg isinya apa ?
~* hmm.. eels.. salmon, raw is better than smoked.. hmm what else.. octopus ? maybe.. i usually eat salmon ;)

Kamu biasa manja2an ke siapa ?
~* lovers *wink*

kamu tipe org setia ngak ?
~* i'm pretty confident to say 'YES'

menurutmu enakan ttm ato komitmen?
~* commit !!

menurutmu pacaran liat tampang gmn? then lo sk tmpg bgmn?
~* urrghh.. i hate people who look into appearance !! only hearts and minds matter..

menurutmu bnarkah cinta TIDAK harus memiliki?
~* yes.. sad, but yes..

How many times have you truly been in love?
~* hmm.. twice..

Have you ever thought that you were going to marry the person you were with?
~* yeah once.. but it turns out it's too difficult, so we broke up, and it hurts more.. so i guess i can suggest don't really set your hope too high..

Are you happy being single rather than being relationships?
~* i love being in relationship more... i wish.. hmm.. :(

What is your ideal boyfriend?
~* he has to be mature, because he has to be able to accept me for the way i really am, for what i did, for what i will be..
~* knows what he wants to do..
~* he also has to be smart, i don't mean intelligent but i would love it if he has deep insight about things.. talkative enough because i'm a quiet person..
~* funny enough, because i like someone who can make me laugh..
~* but stricly he has to really love me and be faithful ...

Have you dated people who were not good to you?
~* yes.. and i deeply regret it..

Would you date someone older than you?
~* i'm a girl and that's what girls usually do :)

Ever been given a promise ring?
~* no..

Mo kerja dulu/nikah dulu ?
~* if i can find a job, career's first.. but if i can find someone who can support me entirely, i want to get married hauahuhaua...

Dulu rencana nikah umur brapa ? why?
~* urrgh.. around 25, but i don't think that will happen..

Pengen punya anak brapa?why?
~* 3 .. i don't know why, maybe because my family's also consist of 3 kids.. like what my mom said, one is too quiet, two is still quiet, three is great, more than that is crowded :) i hope i'll have good life to support 3 kids (~_~)
if economically impossible, so it's better be just have one...

Are u photogenic?
~* definitely no .. x( so sad....


Do you drink milk ?
~* yes.. since i was a kid.. my mom gave it twice a day.. i do until high school.. now i onlydrink sometimes, but i really think it really helps to keep healthy, turns out i never got any serious illness..

Do you prefer apple or orange juice ?
~* apple

how often do you check your email ?
~* err.. about every 2 / 3 days

Do you know what a plecostamous is ?
~* no.. i'll google... okay, it's a kind of catfish.. i still don't know what it is :)

Have you ever watched a sunrise rise over the ocean ?
~* no..

Do you prefer wooden or mechanical pencils ?
~* mechanical.. but wooden's fine..

Do you enjoy breaking hearts ?
~* who does ?? pathetic..

Do you believe there is only one ?
~* used to.. but not anymore :)

Have you found your one ?
~* i don't know :) hopefully not yet..

Have you ever waved at someone who was waving at you, only to realize they waved to someone else ?
~* hahaha yes.. so ashamed

Have you ever had to run for your life ?
~* no.. i hope not.. !

Have you ever been to a family reunion ?
~* yes..

If your lover cheated on you and profusely apologized, would you accept the apology ?
~* depends on how he cheated.. i can say maybe i'll give him 2nd chance, but that's it..

Are you allergic to any insect bites ?
~* no.. mosquito bites maybe, they can last for like ever x(

Have you ever been searched by the cops ?
~* lol.. i hope not

Do you close your eyes on roller coasters ?
~* when was a kid, no.. nowadays, yes ehuehue.. i don't know why, i'm afraid of heights now x(

Do you consider yourself creative ?
~* no x(

Jennifer Aniston or Angelina Jolie ?
~* jennifer aniston !!

Do you stay friends with your ex` s ?
~* hmm.. we're not enemy but we don't really talk to each other..

Do you believe in love at first sight ?
~* no.. it's all lust..

Do you like Sushi ?
~* not hating it..

What do you wear to bed ?
~* pyjamas ..lingerie ;p

What shoe size do you have ?
~* 7-8 / 39-40

Have you truly hated anyone ?
~* yessssss

What food do you find disgusting ?
~* things that are not supposed to be eaten of course.. anything extraordinary.. x(

Have you ever been punched in the face ?
~* no

If you only had 24 hours to live, what would you do ?
~* call everyone i know.. saying sorry for what i've done to trouble them.. maybe stay quietly enjoy my every breath .. well in 24 hours you cant do much x(

What do you do when you can`t fall asleep ?
~* keep doing stuffs until i'm tired..


pink or purple?
~* not a pinky girl, but i like it better than purple..

ipod or cd player?
~* ipod surely (~_~)

mk-a or the veronicas?
~* the veronicas.. because i don't know who mk-a is ;p .. the veronica's songs are pretty great..

ice cream or chocolates?
~* ice cream..

newspapers or mags?
~* mags ..

daniel radcliffe or chad michael murray?
~* chad michael murray laaah....

rihanna or beyonce?
~* beyonce's sexier .. ;p

alicia keys or ashanti?
~* alicia keys, although not really a fan

the OC or laguna beach?
~* urrgh.. i don't watch all of them..

HP or computer?
~* computer..

saturday or sunday?
~* saturday !

pussycat dolls or sugababes?
~* PCD !!!

mariah carey or britney?
~* britney fan :)

milkshake or cappucino?
~* milkshake

harry potter or Lord of the ring?
~* harry potter !

mtv or chanel [v] ?
~* i think MTV's better..

sms or chatting?
~* both are fine

id girl or giordano?
~* giordano

roxy or billabong?
~* both are fine :)

america or australia?
~* i love both !!

japan or korea?
~* japan..

Jessica or ashlee Simpson?
~* i like Jessica's better

hilary or haylie duff?
~* hilary !

emma roberts or JoJo?
~* i never heard of emma, so maybe i like JoJo better..

mischa barton or rachel ?
~* mischa's prettier .... but i'm not a fan..

paris hilton or nicole richie?
~* i totally like Paris better.. !!!!!! c'mon nicole, you'll never be like paris.. so start eating, please..

kelly clarkson or carrie?
~* kelly

mary kate or ashley?
~* ashley.. simply because i don't like mary kate's style..

lisa or bart?
~* homer !!!!!!! :D

chocolate or strawberry?
~* chocolate

coffee or tea?
~* hmm.. like choc better heuheuheue.. but gotta choose, hmm.. coffee with milk ?

cosmogirl or go girl?
~* don't read teenage magazine anymore.. i'll choose cosmopolitan..

s'pore or malaysia?
~* singapore i guess.. but i don't like it either hauehuae

china or thailand?
~* i haven't been in thailand before, so i'll take thai for this.. besides, i don't really like china hmm..


THREE MOVIES YOU COULD WATCH OVER AND OVER
~* friends :) wait, does that count as movie ? urrggh.. maybe SAW .. Shark Tale, Fast and Furious..

THREE CITIES YOU'VE LIVED IN
~* Solo.. Melbourne.. next ?? :)

THREE TV SHOWS YOU LOVE TO WATCH
~* nahhh.. definitely Friends.. Desperate Housewives.. Charmed.. urrgh lots, 3 aren't enough.. now i'm loving Will & Grace .. The Simpsons.. Queer Eye for Straight Guy.. many more..

THREE PLACES YOU'VE BEEN ON VACATION
~* hmm.. more than 3 i guess.. i've been to Jakarta, lol.. consider it's vacation :) then, Yogya, Semarang, Surabaya, Bali.. okay maybe overseas sound more like vacation..
i've been to malaysia & singapore of course ..
Paris, Lourdes .. Hong Kong, Shen Zhen, Guang Zhou..
Perth, Melbourne (^^), Sydney ..
Frankfurt but only at the airport aheuaheuheu.. transit on my way to New York City.. Florida..
okay what else.. urrm.. i think that's all.. i'm wishing to go travelling again!!


THREE WEBSITES YOU VISIT DAILY
~* eBay :p .. friendster, maybe ? ... google ?

THREE SCHOOLS YOU'VE ATTENDED
~* duh ?? more than 3 surely.. TK Mesen, SD Pangudi Luhur 2, SMP Bintang Laut, SMAn 3 !! then RMIT Univ x( heuheue..

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE FOODS
~* anything delicious.. fried.. bit spicy ? heuhuaehue..

angka yang paling kamu suka?
~* i don't have any favourite number

Loe suka komik apa?
~* detective.. horror.. funny.. well basically i read most comics, except action comics

Loe suka novel apa?
~* complicated yet intriguing novel..

Kalo chicklit/teenlit?
~* not a fan

Novel fiksi?
~* it's okay :P

Loe bisa masak?
~* i can but i'm not expert..

HP loe on 24 jam?
~* yes..

Loe percaya horoskop?
~* not really

Lebih suka shopping atau ngafe?
~* shopping !! ;p

Loe gampang percaya orang?
~* unfortunately yes x(

martabak, enak ga?
~* yes it's okay..

Bisa jatuh cinta sama sohib lawan jenis?
~* yes i think so..

Apa yg lo lakuin kalo ada sapi tanya ma lo dmn anaknya?
~* 'minta maaf, anaknya empuk sekale.. =)~~' heuheuheue this is actually Andre's answer but i love it xD

Apa yg lo lakuin kalo pacar lo bilang "hidup gw tanpa lo sama kyk malam tanpa bulan"?
~* nyaut 'ah masa? gombal' ;p

Apa yg lo lakuin kalo ada kucing ngajak ngomong lo?
~* there are 2 possibilities.. first , i'll bring the cat home, and i will contact Ripley's Believe it or not.. damn i'll be rich.. OR .. I'll get scared I'd probably run away anyway auehuaheuaehue...

Apa yg lo lakuin kalo tukang siomay lo ternyata batman?
~* i don't care.. i still ask him to made me siomay anyway heuheuheue.. well maybe taking photos heuheuheue..

Apa yang lo lakuin kalo liat srigala lagi mandi?
~* run before he bite me..

Apa lo suka makan sayur?
~* urrghh i'm definitely more carnivore ;p but i don't mind eating brocollies, cabbage, lettuce,tomatoes, carrots.. that's all..

Apa lo suka minum air?
~* not really.. i don't really drink much, i know it's bad, i'll try to cut this habit..

Apa lo suka makan jengkol, pete dan sejenisnya?
~* NO !

Apa lo pernah ciuman ama temen lo?
~* muahahahaha yes ;p

Apa lo pernah marah?
~* who doesnt?

Apa lo pernah ga mandi dalam sehari?
~* mwahaha yes .. my record's a week without shower mwahahaha...

apa lo pernah jatoh kalo jalan?
~* of course.. but only happened for like 4 times.. i'm not clumsy

Apa lo pernah mencuri , ayoo ngaku!!
~* yes.. i'm honest :)

Apa lo pernah makan di warteg?
~* no..

Apa lo pernah ditangkap polisi?
~* no..

Apa lo pernah stress ampe ky org gila?
~* nearly yes..

Apa lo pernah salah masuk WC?
~* yeah twice..

Apa lo pernah coba pakaian lawan jenis ?
~* yes heuheuheue...

kalo kamu karakter komik/hero kamu ingin jadi?
~* richie rich.. si untung bebek.. anyone who's rich ;D

kalo punya kantong doraemon kamu ingin punya?
~* if i have doraemon's pocket of course i have everything in it.. but maybe i'll use 'kotak andaikan' often ;p

kalo boleh milih hidup di jaman apa, kamu mau hidup di jaman?
~* jaman kaya digame rpg.. but that doesn't exist right eueue.. i don't know.. i'm quite happy with this time right now..

kalo boleh jadi binatang sehari kamu jadi?
~* rich people's pets..

kalo kamu, mendingan punya sayap atau bisa nafas di dalam air?
~* have wings... underwater's cold heuheuheue...

kalo film yang you wish you were in apaan?
~* lol.. i have no idea.. any movie where i can kiss the gorgeous actors xD

kalo bisa ilangin seseorang, sapa yg bakalan ilangin?
~* jerk and asshole bastards..

kalo dapet satu lantai penuh di salah satu gedung di jalan Sudirman mau dipake buat apa?
~* penthouse.. *dreaming*

kalo boleh bikin pesta di istana bogor,kamu bikin pesta apa?
~* no idea.. costume party i think

kalo kamu bisa ngundang makan malam satu orang hollywood star kamu akan ngundang sapa?
~* hm... johnny depp ? heuheue.. i don't know.. any good looking man who's available..

kalo boleh ngeband bareng band top,kamu akan pilih dengan:
~* L`arc~e`Ciel ... huaehuheue...

kalo ada satu orang yang boleh lo tampar saat ini juga lo mau tampar siapa
~* people who has ruined my life..

kalo hidup lo difilmkan, yang main peran lo siapa
~* myself.. because i don't think anyone would understand what i feel

kalo lo ketemu jin lampu di tengah jalan?
~* take it home.. asking for thousand whishes *greedy* xD

kalo besok semua orang di dunia jadi vegetarian lo mo makan apa hari ini?
~* meat of course..

kalo lo boleh menguasai hilton jakarta?
~* dreaming ehueheue.. i don't know...



[ ] I have run more than 2 miles without stopping
[ ] I have been to Canada
[ ] I have been on some sort of sports team
[x] I have watched cartoons for hours before
[ ] I have tripped UP the stairs
[ ] have fallen down an entire flight of stairs
[ ] have been snowboarding/skiing
[ ] I have played ping pong
[ ] I swam in the ocean
[x] I have been on a whale watch
[x] I have seen fireworks
[ ] I have seen a shooting star
[ ] I have seen a meteor shower
[ ] I have almost drowned
[x] I have been so embarrassed I wanted to disappear
[x] I have listened to one cd over & over & over again
[ ] I have had stitch(es)
[ ] I have licked a frozen pole and got stuck there.
[x] I have stayed up til 6am doing homework/projects
[x] I have had a job
[ ] I have been ice skating
[x] I have been rollerblading
[ ] I have fallen flat on my face
[x] I have tripped over my own two feet
[ ] I have been in a fist fight
[x] I have played videogames for more than 3 hours straight ( i can even last for 20 hours ;p )
[x] I have watched The Power Rangers
[ ] I do / have attended Church regularly
[ ] I have played truth or dare
[x] I have already had my 16th birthday
[x] I have already had my 17th birthday
[x] I've called someone stupid. And i mean it
[x] I've been in a verbal argument
[ ] I've cried in school
[ ] I've played basketball on a team
[ ] I've played softball on a team
[ ] I've played football on a team
[ ] I've played soccer on a team
[ ] I've done cheerleading on a team
[ ] I've swam on a team
[x] I've been swimming more than 20 times in my life
[ ] I've bungee jumped
[ ] I've climbed a rock wall before
[ ] I've lost more than $20
[x] I've called myself an idiot
[x] I've called someone else an idiot
[x] I've cried myself to sleep
[x] I've had (or have) pets
[x]I've owned a Spice Girls cd. and or tape
[x] I've owned a Britney Spears cd
[ ] I've owned an N*Sync cd
[x] I've owned a Backstreet Boys cd
[ ] Ive mooned someone
[ ] I've sworn at someone in authority
[ ] I've been in the schoolnewspaper / insights
[ ] I've been on TV
[x] I've eaten sushi
[ ] I've been on the other side of a waterfall
[ ] I've watched all of the Lord of the Rings movies
[x] I've watched all the Harry Potter movies
[ ] I've watched the 3 Stooges at least once
[x] I've watched "Newlyweds" Nick & Jessica
[x] I've watched Looney Tunes before
[ ] I've been stuffed into a locker
[ ] I've been called a geek
[x] I've studied hard for a test and got a bad grade
[x] I've not studied at all for a test and aced it
[x] I've met a celebrity / music / TV artist
[x] I've written poetry.
[ ] I've been arrested
[ ] I've been attracted to someone much older than me
[x] I've been tickled till I've cried
[ ] I've tickled someone else until they cried
[x] I've had / have siblings
[ ] Ive been to a rock concert
[x] Ive listened to classical music and enjoyed it
[ ] I've been in a play
[ ] I've been picked last in gym class
[ ] I've been picked first in gym class or so
[ ] I've cried in front of my friends
[ ] I've read a book longer than 1,000 pages
[ ] I've freaked out over a sports game
[ ] I’ve vomited in public
[ ] I've washed someone else’s vomit
[ ] I’ve ran away
[ ] I’ve had a stalker
[x] I've had a fight with someone on txt
[x] I've had a fight with someone face-to-face
[ ] I've been on a car accident
[x] I've forgiven someone who has done something bad to me
[ ] I've personally seen someone die
[ ] I've been confronted by a police officer but got away
[x] I've lost someone who meant the world to me
[ ] I've had crashed a party
[ ] I've been a member of a school office
[ ] I've been suspended from class

back from hiatus

LOL .. it's been a long time ... is there anyone still visiting this blog ??
wow, haven't written anything for so long, right now i have no idea how to write.. eventhough i have lots of stories to be told..

Reasons why i suddenly stopped writing, were because i simply didn't have time to.. so many things happened, few good things and some bad things.. i think it's best not to be told in here...
I'll try to start writing again.. after all i kinda need this blog to express what i feel inside, which i usually can't do public..

for starter, i think i'll just post some facts about me, which i took them from bulletin boards of Friendster.. feel free to read, to comment, to take some bulbo you haven't had, anything.. i actually don't care whether you'll like it or not LOL ..

Cat or Dog
*~ dogs for sure.. i've had dogs since i was a kid.. and in fact i just bought a new puppy 2 months ago.. i'll write about it in another post next time..

Short or Long Hair
*~ tried both, i think long hair fits me better..

Innie or Outie
*~ i gotta say i'm an innie person.. i don't really like to go out everyday, although there are some times i feel wild and wants to go out all day, but that doesn't really happen so often.. maybe just twice in a week.. i find staying at home tends to be more relaxing, besides it saves money hehehe.. because when i go out, i'm always tempted to buy something either food or stuffs... so stay at home-watchin tv all day.. i like that (^.^) such a couch potato (^^')

Sunshine or Rain
*~ can't really choose.. if i'm at home, i like it to be raining.. but i don't like a heavy rain... rain is so soothing and weird or not, i like the smell of it..
but when i go out, of course i like the sunshine.. who wants rain when we're so neat and gorgeous ? but i also don't like a really hot day.. what a waste of perfume if you're sweating from the heat, right ?? :P

Moon or Sun
*~ being a night person i am, i like moon better.. moon sounds more mysterious , right ??

Basketball or Football
*~ basketball,of course.... but i don't hate football..

Righty or Lefty
*~ definitely righty...

Hugs or Kisses
*~ hugs .. why i like it more, because i think kiss is more about passion or lust, and that's not good xD

1 Best Friend or 10 Acquaintances
*~ wow.. i dunno the answer for this one, maybe 1 best friend is better but well you know, people change....

bf/gf or Best Friend
*~ if you have a lover whom you're sure he/she's the one, my answer is bf/gf is better than best friend.. because face it, eventhough you have best friend, he/she'll eventually care more about his/her lover than you.. you eventually will have different ways of life, your friend won't support your life, right ?
yes a classic great answer would be 'friend is more important than lover' ..but nowadays, people change.. it's great to have best friends, i'm sure.. but even your best friends have lovers.. (^.^) so my answer for this one is give 65% to lovers, 35% for friends.. you can call me meanie, but hey.. i'm learning from experience.....

TV or Radio
*~ duh ? hellooo.. TV for sure... radio is only when there's no TV's around..

Starbucks or Jamba Juice
*~ i don't know what jamba juice is... so my answer for this is Starbucks.. although i'm not really a fan, but it's good..

McDonalds or Burger King
*~ among my friends, i'm the only one who LOVES Mc'D more.. i can't get bored with mcD..

Summer or Winter
*~ hate both.. hate cold, hate sunny.. i prefer warm spring / autumn.. but if i have to choose, i like summer because you can wear cute outfits LOL .. xD

Playstation or Xbox
*~ playstation !! don't have any reason...

Disney or Nickelodeon
*~ disney for sure.. i only like nickelodeon for their Spongebob Squarepants.. disney has LOTS like it..

Car or Motorcycle
*~ car .. huheuhue .. no reason.. maybe for safety... and it's more comfortable heuhue

House Party or Club
*~ hmm.. depends on the occasion.. and also my mood at that time (^^) .. if i wanna get closer with my friends, definitely house party's better, because who can talk in club ???

Sing or Dance
*~ tough.. urrm.. sing , although i dont have great voice, but it's fun and easier than dancing huehuehue..

Yahoo Messenger or MSN
*~ msn surely.. people i know mostly use it..

Google or Yahoo
*~ 5 years ago, i like yahoo... nowadays, google's my first option..


How tall are you barefoot?
+ i'm short, only around 158-160 cms.. :(

Have you ever been unfaithful in a relationship?
+ lol.. only once, and that's because i saw no future with him and he only talked with me for like once a month , due to long distance ?? whether i cheated or not, we would be breaking up anyway.. so i'm pretty much confident to say that i'm faithful .. i often get cheated, that's why i hate cheaters !!

Do you own a gun?
+ surely no O_O

If you had a mental disorder, what would it be?
+ urrm.. gotta say severe depression, suicidal, something like that ;p

What do you think of hotdogs?
+ what to comment about ? it's just food...

What's your favorite Christmas song?
+ Sleigh Ride.. and Walking In The Winter Wonderland...

What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
+ i dunno.. don't have any fave.. maybe milk.. maybe coffee.. maybe juice.. depends on the mood

Do you do push-ups?
+ nope ;D

Have you ever done ecstasy?
+ thankfully nope..

Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
+ single at the time.. not sure until when *wink*

Do you like the rain?
+ gotta say, 70% yes....

Do you own a knife?
+ kitchen knife ? sure..

What do you smell like?
+ wakakkaa.. no idea.. i hope i don't smell bad, do i ?? please comment :D

Can you spell?
+ yes i think

where do you think you'll be in 10 yrs?
+ i dont even know about next year

Do you do tanning?
+ nope

Yellow or blue?
+ blue

Would you be a pirate?
+ i dont think so.. i don't really like sailing :)

what songs do you sing in the shower?
+ anything i can sing, and what song's stuck on my mind at that time

What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
+ ghost of course.. until now ahuahuaha... still afraid of ghosts eventough i love ghost stories..

budweiser/Heineken/Corona?
+ i don't like beers... :)

Walls/campina/haagen dasz?
+ when i was kids, i liked campina... when i was teenager, i liked walls.. now, i liked campina again.. i'm not really a fan of Haagen dasz, although i also like it sometimes..

Ello/Glenn/Marcell?
+ definitely Glenn Fredly !!!!!! although now i begin to like Marcell too.. He's a funny man, i watched his collaboration concert with Glenn in Melbourne 3 weeks ago.. he's damn funny.. for glenn, no need to ask, i'm a big fan of him !!

Mercedes/BMW/Jaguar?
+ i find mercedes more elegant than bmw, i like elegance, although i won't say no if someone gives me a bmw (anyone??) .. i don't really know about jaguar...

Basket/Sepakbola/Bilyar?
+ like before, basketball first.. and billyard second.. football would be the least fave..

Rock/Pop/R N'B?
+ pop , then rnb .. not really a rock listener, but i like some of it..

AC Milan/Juventus/Inter Milan?
+ not being a football i am, i don't really have a fave.. but i'll go with juventus if any of those three meet in a match..

Metallica/Red Hot Chili Peppers/GunN'Roses?
+ RHCP .. i like some of their songs.. GNR is good too.. metallica, i only hear them when i'm in stress mode :)

Adidas/Puma/Nike?
+ nike .. justdoit !! :p ...

Dolce & Gabbana/Fendi/Prada?
+ LV ? anyone wanna buy me one ??

Dian Sastro/Luna Maya/Nirina ?
+ to be honest, i'm not a fan for all of them :p .. i don't hate them, but just not a fan.. but i can say Luna Maya's the prettiest of all :p

Brad Pitt/Collin Farrell/Johny Depp ?
+ johnny depp !!!!! don't know why, he seems cool, mysterious, and bad :D he's such a great actor, can totally change his face in different role.. loveee the way he talks.. in silent but deep.. he rocks !!
brad pitt, yeah i use to like him, for he's sure gorgeous.. but since he's with angelina jolie,i hate him :D i'm totally one of Team Aniston.. Collin Farrell ?? i don't like him at all.. x(

KFC/McDonalds/Wendy's?
+ like i said before, totally mcD's fan.. then KFC.. i only like wendy's for their waffle..

Slank/Dewa/Peterpan?
+ slank is good, but i'm not a slankers.. dewa,*sigh* i used to like them, but not anymore.. i think they got worse and worse.. peterpan, lol.. yeah i like their songs..

Nokia/Motorola/Samsung?
+ SAMSUNG !! their mobile phones are sleek and elegant.. nokia would be my 2nd fave.. i never used motorola and i don't think i will...

Gitaris/Vokalis/Drummer
+ guitarist, looks cooler.. :p

Danielle Steel/Sidney Sheldon/Mario Puzo?
+ i don't really read their kind of novel, so i don't like all of them..

Steak/Sushi/Spaghetti?
+ hmm.. i can eat steak everyday ;) .. can eat spaghetti often enough.. can eat sushi sometimes :)

Marlboro/Sampoerna/Gudang Garam?
+ not a smoker, but according to my brother, he likes sampoerna better than marlboro.. so i guess if i am a smoker, i'll smoke sampoerna too ?

Comedy/Action/Horror?
+ comedy .. life's suck so i need a really good laugh ;) then surely i love horror movie.. i only like action if it's not too much and has an interesting plot ..

Drama/Sci-Fi?
+ drama.. sci-fi, is it like star wars ? i don't like star wars things... but sci-fi like x-Files, i love them..

Kompas/Media Indonesia/Pos Kota?
+ kompas, eventough i'm not a subscribers :)

teh Botol/Coca-Cola/Fanta?
+ fanta ..

Beng2/Kit-Kat/Toblerone?
+ i like TOP better than beng2... kitkat is okay.. but i don't really like toblerone..

Amrik/Aussie/Europe?
+ any continent is fine, as long it's not asia x( .. i like the states for their modern life.. i like aussie for their clean environment.. i like europe for their sophisticated culture..

BH 90210/Desperate H'Wives/The O.C?
+ LOL .. i used to watch BH 90210 .. and besides, it's about 10 years ago ? why is it being compared with DH and OC ?? oh by the way, I LOVE Desperate Housewives ;-) and i never watch OC :p

N'Sync/Westlife/Boyzone?
+ lol.. i like boyzone .. and westlife's 1st and 2nd album is nice, but after that,they got worse.. for nsync, i only like one song which is drive myself crazy x( why's Backstreet Boys not here ?? I LOVE BSB ....

Indonesian Idol/AFI/KDI?
+ lol.. i watched afi 1 and 2, but they got worse... i never watched indo idol, but i guess it's better than afi and kdi ?? prefer american idol though LOL ..


Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
*~ in my apartment right now, because my closet is a walking wardrobe to the bathroom, i always keep them open.. but for regular closet, i close them of course..

Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel?
*~ nope.. :) hmm.. maybe shower caps.. ehuehuehue.. or pens or paper ;p

Have you ever 'done it' in a hotel room?
*~ no.. maybe in my honeymoon someday :p

Have you ever stolen a street sign before?
*~ duh ?? what for ?? o_O

Do you like to use post-it notes?
*~ used to.. nowadays, urrm.. just sometimes..

Do you cut out coupons and not use them?
*~ LoL.. i only cut coupons if i know i'm gonna use them..

Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees?
*~ lol.. tough question, if i was attacked by a big bear, i'd surely die .. a swarm of bees won't kill you... but if there's a slight chance i might run away, i'd like to be attacked by big bear, because it's slower than bees ;p

Do you always smile for pictures?
*~ about 90% yes ;p

What is your biggest pet peeve?
*~ one who talks too much

Do you ever count your steps when you walk?
*~ no..

Have you ever peed in the woods?
*~ no.. but i've peed on the side road when i was kids ahuehaue.. covered by car doors ;p

Do you ever jump up and down to make your privates bounce?
*~ LOL .. no wayyyy xD

Do you chew your pens and pencils?
*~ no... but one fact, i chew straws when i drink ;p

How many people have you slept with this week?
*~ is it a sex question ? ;p wait .. i've slept with my mom, my 2 brothers, and my nanny when i was a toddler.. some of my cousins ... few of my girlfriends ;p .. hmm slept in sex term, i think it's private, right ??

Do you like popcorn ?
*~ yes i do love popcorn, especially when watching movies..

Is it okay for guys to wear pink?
*~ if it's good on him, why not ?? doesn't mean he's sissy..

Do you still watch cartoons?
*~ LOL.. yesssssss xD

Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some?
*~ if i had some,would i tell u guys where i put it ?? ;p

What drink do you have with dinner?
*~ anything refreshing.. must have ice on it..

What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
*~ mushroom sauce ? sweet and sour sauce usually.. or simply chilli sauce..

what movies could you watch over and over and still love?
*~ one that really touched me.. or one that has unexpected plot...

Were you ever a boy/girl scout?
*~ lol.. i did join scout in my teenage years but that was because school's requirement

Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine?
*~ if it's taken by professional photographer, and it's very art-sy, not the cheap slutty photos, and of course if the salary's great, i would ;p
maybe my answer's a bit controversial for most people, and maybe some of you may think i'm a bitch, but hey you guys don't know anything ... *wink* nudity is pornography only if it's handled with dirty minds ..

Can you change the oil on a car?
*~ never try.. but maybe, there's direction written right ?

Ever gotten a speeding ticket?
*~ no.. :)

Ran out of gas ?
*~ no thankfully..

Best thing to eat for breakfast?
*~ errr.. chicken porridge .. fried rice ;)

What is your usual bedtime?
*~ LOL.. my metabolism is pretty messed up.. let's see.. i definitely don't go to sleep before 12 am.. so maybe around 2 / 3 am.. but yesss sometimes i go to sleep when the sun's rising ;p maybe around 6/7 am, when i have something to do.. or when i have morning class, i tend to stay awake until afternoon then sleep on 4 / 5 pm until 9 / 10 pm.. then stay awake again til morning :p

Are you lazy?
*~ pretty much Yes ! x(

when you were a kid what did you dress up as for halloween?
*~ i never celebrate halloween...

Went trick or treat?
*~ no.. my family doesn't have such tradition..

How many languages can you speak?
*~ let's see.. definitely indonesian, and javanese ;p .. and pretty good in english.. some simple japanese is okay.. very few of mandarin, urrgh consider i can't .. so only 4 ? x( .. i would learn more japanese, french, and spanish if i had a chance..

Do you have any magazine subscriptions?
*~ no.. but i buy them regularly.. i know that by subscribing i will save more money, but i still haven't found great gifts they 'd give if i subscribe ;p

Which are better legos or lincoln logs?
*~ i don;t know what lincoln logs is.. so i would answer LEGOs.. and i think LEGOs's great !

Are you stubborn?
*~ for some of my perspectives, yes... but generally, no....

Who is better... Jay Leno or Conan O'Brien?
*~ hmm.. i don't really watch them everyday, but i think i like Leno better..

Have you ever eaten a crayon?
*~ noooooo... x(