The only song that's been in my head for the past few days, even until now, I can't stop listening to this song.. This song is truly describe how I feel and how our relationship's going..

2 a.m and the rain is falling ..
here we are at the crossroads once again ..
you're telling me you're so confused,
you can't make up your mind ..
" Is this meant to be ? ",
you're asking me ..

but only love can say :
 " try again or walk away "
but i believe for you and me,
the sun will shine one day ..
so I'll just play my part,
and pray you'll have a change of heart ..
but i can't make you see it through,
that's something only love can do ..

in your arms as the dawn is breaking,
face to face & a thousand miles apart,
I've tried my best to make you see,
there's hope beyond the pain,
if we give enough,
if we learn to trust ..

but only love can say :
 " try again or walk away "
but i believe for you and me,
the sun will shine one day ..
so I'll just play my part,
and pray you'll have a change of heart ..
but i can't make you see it through,
that's something only love can do ..

I know if I could find the words to touch you deep inside,
you'll give our dreams just one more chance,
don't let this be our last goodbye ..

but only love can say :
 " try again or walk away "
but i believe for you and me,
the sun will shine one day ..
so I'll just play my part,
and pray you'll have a change of heart ..
but i can't make you see it through,
that's something only love can do ..

that's something only love can do ..

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I don't know where I will be..

I don't know what will happen..

All I know is my feeling is real..

Even though I try so hard to let him go, I just can't..

I can't help but feeling restless .. Waiting for uncertainty .. Sometimes I got tired and wanted to quit .. Sometimes I wonder if his feeling is true or not .. But then I'm already so attached to him .. I can't ask for more .. I'm waiting for the day to come, when it will be clear to see if it's ever meant to be or not ..

I just hope I have enough strength, to hope for the best, and prepare for the worst ..

quick update !

Sehari-hari meskipun, ga keliatan sibuk, tapi agak capek juga akhir-akhir ini, secara rutinitas sudah gak bisa begadang-begadang lagi sampai pagi. Jadi aktifitas untuk yang lain-lainnya agak dikurangin....

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Akhir-akhir ini, aku menyadari beberapa hal.
I've been fighting with my own conscience.
I've become someone I hate the most.

This love has made me become someone so evil. So easy to be envious, so quick to be jealous. And i hate that!
I used to be an open-minded person. I used to be a trustful person, why am I not that person anymore?
There are always voices inside my head, fighting and shouting at each other, saying things I don't want to hear.

What amazed me is, if someone is having the same problem as I am now, I can give good advices and tell him/her to do the right thing. But I can't do the same thing for myself.

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@huan : hati kita tahan banting, tapi bukan berarti kita mau terus2an dibanting kan?
Capek kali lama-lama kalau setiap kali kena ujian bantingan terus.

Running out of patience. Totally hoping for extra charge of patience level.



* but i can't make you see it through, that's something only love can do ...




PS : another update ..
terkadang ironis ya, kalau musuh terbesar kita sendiri, terkadang berasal dari orang yang ketemu tiap hari...